I have Lumbalgia, which is a deep pain in the lower back, don’t know exactly the cause. In the past month I just did pilates (my best friend opened her studio), also I wear high heels almost all day (not now).

But I’m feeling sad, the old gym was motivating since it’s pretty nice, brand new and all the equipment is from BH. But this month doing pilates I feel that I didn’t move forward, I want muscles, I don’t want my friend’s body (she is skinny but no muscles, no difinition, just skinny…) 

Plus I had my period last week, so the week before and this I’ve been feeling low, with cravings and threw up a few times. Recovering from an eating disorder is not easy as you might know.

So… I’m cutting my intake and try to “cheer up” until I can go back to the gym, I think I’m not going anymore to pilates all week, maybe twice per week and after that hit the gym. In a month with diet and hard training I saw results and with pilates I feel I’m going anywhere.

Thoughts? Pilates combined with gym? ? 

I feel depressed actually, feel that I gain so much weight and actually I didn’t gain at all, but my muscles are not tight up like a month ago.

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